Left for dead he fooled them, got up and walked away She found him lying there Bleeding out fast She knelt down next to him Took his helmet from his head And she cried when he looked her in the eye and then died Tell me what you want What you really aspire to be I’ve tasted air But I’ve only just started to breathe I’ve never cried out for anything more than today I’ll take the words from the winds for a debt to be paid And soon I will be Lost in my world again She went back to her town completely changed She pointed to the woods Because that’s where he fell She begged to bury him But they ignored her plea What good’s compassion at the risk of seeing one ugly sight (It’s not right) Could it be this way If you really decide to leave Our monuments shatter instantly Into debris It’s too far gone to pick it all up once again That sweat and blood I devote To the tip of my pen Take me where I’ll be Lost in my world again She fell in love with this one story Traced every word by hand But the lines can’t find the path That could take her to the end I’ll flip to the last page I spilled my ink on And steal myself away to a steady decline I’ve faced much worse without so much as warning (Tell me what you want, what you really aspire to be) (I don’t want anything else, this is what I choose) I’ll play the same charade if you won’t hear me Say it out loud Say it Scream Call it out loud And I am not done wasting time

Hidden in the trees The leaves all torn away The archer sets his sight And lets his arrow fly It flies like the birds It carries the message “Will you stand to kill a man?” It flies like the birds Its beak pierces my heart It flies like the birds And its wings are burning It flies like the birds And its talons are tearing my flesh Let’s give them what we came for Take care poor young souls Your loss for words Signals the end for you Misfortune is perched On the windowsill Pray that the panes will hold When you see the first line break through the vine Hold tight to your lights till you can’t tell The whites of their eyes from embers Let loose your grips and light the Fire For or very own king’s selfish desire Lay down you fears The rampart’s not that high If they’re swarming our forces Give them everything we have until they lie at the wall Or it comes crashing down Calm, light as a whisper Gliding without a flutter Comes time to reveal our true nature And I’m still unsure What river flows With knowledge when death sets upon us It flies like the birds And its eyes see prey from the sky We’re bent to a will We cannot change It flies like the birds And they fall one at a time For the very first time I’ve heard the chime (They are not strong enough) The rite of the blind has stained this night (But we are endangered husks) With pealing that bells remember (Lost to the throes of mayhem) I see its form held in the Fire For the glory of our own great empire Pick up your spears And point them to the sky If they’re storming this fortress They’ll take everything we have If they last until dawn And we’ll come crashing down Mother sings her child to sleep The birds all harmonize their tweets Sun doesn’t rise but they won’t listen Mother’s asking quiet please Go fly little bird Let your song be a lullaby in the night Far out of sight Cacophony reigns supreme As all we know is split at the seams Walking the balancing beam Between lies and dreams All semblance of safety Is torn and strewn across battlefields Atop the bodies of men Fear driven or dead Old lines we’ve been chasing Lead us all to the soil I once thought that surrender would shame us Talent promise effort wasted Like the years spent on this career I’m sorry dear it seems I won’t be able to visit your grave this year We are not strong enough This war has no place for us Rapture is ours to hope for We’re trapped in place and we’re on Fire Not for any wish to melt or perspire Lay down your spears The battle ends right here Unless, Sire, you have orders before we expire

It takes the longest time To regain your sense When not for pity’s sake Nor for trying I don’t like where this is leading Fingertips some burnt some bleeding See the chance and the life so fleeting And run them down till their hearts stop beating Rather than observe your choice To be obtuse I’ll end the truce Let loose If I challenge words you speak in vain And go against the grain Don’t say that it’s a shame We don’t see eye to eye You clench with an iron jaw Thorn in my side Loath to change your mind With idle pride Everything you say It contradicts what I’ve been told my whole life With arbitrary rules applied Don’t be the one to tell me I have no right I don’t want to be the one Arguing because you’re blind to my side I’d rather leave than carry this Any chance to disappear will decide Gather all your worth and poise And sick abuse It’ll be your noose So chase me Is this hunt what you want Envision I’ve been caught Take your shot I’ll be gone Far off You want me to fight But you can’t make me do a thing I’ve never walked until my path was crystal clear If I challenge words you speak in vain And go against the grain Don’t say that it’s a shame We don’t see eye to eye You clench with an iron jaw Thorn in my side Loath to change your mind Your idol

Watch your hands They’re shaking as you waver on your feet I’ve seen better And they’d admit defeat Follow closely my lead to rest And take a hint from me You are alive No thanks to pride You can’t thrive while so deprived Chase the tide And take a dive A suicide by dying defied Nothing left for you at home All you have is empty streets to roam I’m just trying to keep you from injuring yourself Reaching out to those you love would just hurt them as well Wash your hands They tell me who you are and what you need You have a plan And you can’t be discreet You see this town These ruins are the folly of spite And there’s too many foes For you to pick a fight You are alive No thanks to pride You can’t thrive while so deprived Chase the tide And take a dive A suicide by dying defied Nothing left for you at home All you have is empty streets to roam I’m just trying to keep you from injuring yourself Living for revenge will only land you in a cell I am understanding that you need fuel to ignite your fires But you need air just as much to make it light so breathe deep I’m outcast like you Harboring past scars on my back It’s true that We’re fugitives too The outside world has its own rules But it doesn’t hold all of us down It can’t hold all of us down It can’t hold all of us down It can’t hold all of us down Doesn’t hold all of me down

Shadow stains are sustained Held still by the leaves that fail to notice the movement Walking through their limbs there’s a guest Cast in blue light He places each foot with care Dancing a dirge upon a grave His own grave Wreathed in the smoke of the fire That once belonged to him He projects a scene to me Mornings where the city stifled and oppressed the air The coins that stuffed those bags would glint and flair Lending credence to the sun’s hot glare No one even turned to stop and stare No matter how much time that I spent there It’s the truth that those who never care Are never the ones who feel true to despair Like the ones who see their messy affairs Now he’s crying trying to wake up Trying not to bend from the waist up All the strain from the pain is Taking its toll as he looks to the rain Washing blood from the ground Letting him pass on without a sound And with him died the mystery Rendering the rest ancient history You speak disaster of these symbols in chalk swept away And your unease speaks languages I’ll never comprehend What danger comes from a lone spirit who is in decay He’s merely sharing his life biding time till he transcends Apparition Is there any advice to spill towards me If knowledge flows in rivers Cause I’m not sure I’m strong enough To survive this long Even when I’m not on my own Superstition’s always holding me down

Someday you’ll know what it means to be alive

There’s some tenets on the page And they spell the worst offense Let my penance set the stage For the coming of events In my heart there are parts where harm’s easy for me But I know that what’s left of me is tame But would you take me in if you discard the rest I told a lie the spirit denied I’ll never hide with him So I’ll fly Into the land Till I’ve Passed through the sand Lay down flat if you can’t stand My haste won’t change if we cross paths I’m just trying to keep myself Far out of harm’s way You know that I would never want to leave Though I think that it would better me I’ve done this where I snuck away softly It’s right but you will never see Could you take me in if you if I still scarred your hands I’ve gone awry and if I should die I’ll never lie again So I’ll fly Into the land Till I’ve Passed through the sand Lay down flat if you can’t stand My haste won’t change if we cross paths Don’t wait around for my sake The wind collects for my stay You have to learn from my mistakes The time has come for you to look the other way And leave me here And oh, don’t act as though I can repay all that I owe

Black I can’t tell you what’s in front of me My knees are weakening Shoulders scraping up against the wall Rattled by a fading light My lungs are caught debating Between breath and suffocating Don’t leave me like this When I’m Not sure what’s contemplating Whether my life is worth saving Will I be the satiating Of the malice emanating Letting go of your hand gave way to hands Surrounding grasping and clawing me I’ll try finding the exit But I start to panic glancing behind me Come back I can’t see where you are My pulse has quickened at the sound of you Close but distant like waking from a dream End to end my body betrays me And gossamer threads lead me down Weave with graceful dread But stay quelled Step by step my feet sink in deeper Deeper I reach my arms out As I feel the drip on my neck The cold brings ice to freeze my spine Come back I can’t see where you are My pulse has quickened at the sound of you It’s time to leave It’s time to leave Can you feel the wall swell as if It has been gestating With whatever is pulsating Can you hear the jaws snap with a Sound that turns to grating As it’s slowly masticating Can you see the light is fading Come back I can’t see where you are

I’m sorry again Your soul does not belong here One day you will see (What life really means) That all of this is temporary And in the end you were a danger to yourself (I’m sorry again, your soul does not belong here) Understand I don’t enjoy that I That I’m the weight holding you down, oh Whispering ever so sweetly I hope you never blame me For drowning you in the deeps of My life dream I’ll admit I’m not so proud of All that it took me to be here I hope you never blame me For I believe you won’t see What I receive

Why am I still here For emotions I deem lesser than fear You tried to disappear You were never perfectly sincere I feel some guilt surviving But nothing compares to seeing you float Why do I stay Can I salvage all that’s left Before night steals the sky Is this all that’s left Lifting your body seemed an easy task Your weight is not all that I carry to shore But it’s all that’s left I find it’s all that’s left It’s all that’s Endings are severe I’ll be waiting to see if you appear Maybe your spirit didn’t die this day But I’m not sure I’d want it either way Why do I stay Is it really all that’s left Did the spite steal your life Is it all that’s left Can you see the light has faded Passing my last plea What is the purpose What is the cost And where will I be when I’ve found what I lost And when will I figure out why I’m still here Are you near It’s all that’s left

I am not done wasting time I’ve made up my mind You’ll see that I Am more than prepared for what’s to come I am not done wasting time It’s not theirs it’s mine I’ll cut all ties If that’s what defines my weaknesses Flight is out of mind When I only feel safe In my home Write all the thoughts you find And say the words Until you mean them Oh I’d rather be alone Proximity demands a modicum of lies and empty promises Or at least that’s what I’ve seen From friends and family I’d wish for trust and faith but It’s just hard when part of me hopes I never fall in love I’m so tired of Talking about what transpired And I don’t want to build a monument To try to reconcile Well I’m not taking any chances If one chance is all I get Distance helps us forget Those who live with regret All this I’ve written in a message I’ll never relay Time I spend alone Is time I spend with you To pick up the pieces of my guise And use you as the glue So there’s no one else to know Whether I grew By now I’ve got nothing left to write But something still tells me There’s more room on this blank white page Tell me the truth Who am I writing to I heard once hands are what represent who we are What does it say about me if mine tire Time spent alone Is time I spend with you Pick up the pieces of my disguise And use me as you choose I don’t want anything but this is what I lose